~Rag-Dolly

Just to get rid of previous journal entry, I'm impressed. Some people are complaining about how the previous version was better, how it is going to take ages to look through messages, how chaotic it seems at first...

Personal opinion?

I love it. I RACED through my dev's because I didnt have to select every single dev and view it. I could simply go straight to the devs I wanted to see.

True, I almost had a heart attack, and thought someone had bought me a subscription, since it's pretty much exactly like a sub. So I don't know if DA's got nifty new Subscription features to counter act their super make over for us poor people, but I am a lot more impressed with this version.

So whoo DA. You did me proud.

Now I'm going to sit here and do nothing, because after five hours of shopping my feet hurt.

So I'm pretty much artistically dead right now. I just, can't be inspired to draw anything lately, which is rather depressive since if I don't draw anything I'll get pissy, which, is kinda already happening.

All I'm doing is playing Wonderland Online and Keepsake, and watching animes. Oh, and I started cleaning my room, which is a miracle and a half. I can see the floor which is always a nice surprise.

I'm going to try and draw, like, loads. And only excisting OC's. They're not getting enough loving from me, which is a disgrace. I kinda feel like deleting all of the traditional, as well as digital drawings that I have made thus far and not uploading anything until I think it's truely worth it.

I'm in a rather sombre mood when it comes to my artwork. I know I've improved, I just don't think I've improved enough. I want to improve more, but can't seem to find the energy to even pick up a pencil. I don't know how to improve myself, what measures I must take to get better, to learn more. Up till now, I've bought a couple books but rarely looked at them, except if I needed something to reference, which I don't do often. It just feels like I can't improve on my own anymore. But I can't go to my mother about it because her style of artwork is completely different than mine, it has nothing to do with anime style at all.

I'm kinda jealous of that I suppose. I'm drawing in a style that everyone else seems to have adopted, where as she has her whole own style. Mine doesn't seem like anything individual, anything to be truely proud of. I'll feel like I've made progress, but only because there's aspects to it that are better than my previous works. I can't compare my work with anyone elses and say; "oh look, mine looks better than that because.." or "Mine is more unique than that because..." because it doesn't, and isn't.

Blah. I sound terrible don't I. But other than artwise I feel pretty normal and happy. I'm hanging out with my friends more, getting out the house, sticking to college (If you don't count today.. I kinda got my days mixed up and thought it was my Free Wednesday, instead of Thursday.

Medically I've found out that I can't handle cheese. Or at least, a lot of it. Before I didn't eat cheese all that much. Once in a while a cheese cracker or Cheese on toast. But over the last couple months I ate more and more cheese. Not because it was nice, but because we had nothing else. So I kept getting stomache cramps. Went to doctors, they told me there was nothing wrong (In terms of Stomache infections) and then was told that I was probably allergic to something I was eating. Now that I've cut down on cheese, I'm no longer suffering from stomache cramps. I can still eat it, just not large quantities.

Other than that I have to go to the dentist next week friday, which is total crud because my college group is going bbq'ing then. So unhappy. But it's neccesary. If I don't go, I won't be able to open my mouth properly, ever. I have some sort of weird Jaw problem. I was told what it was called but I just don't remember. Long weird word with three initials. Anyway, basically I am either going to end up with a brace, or I'm getting some teeth pulled in my bottom set. According to the doctor that is. He did say that that wasn't his thing and so he wasn't too sure, but that's the regular procedure. Apparently I seem to have too many teeth on the bottom row, which is stopping my jaw from moving properly. I'll look it up on google, see if I can come up with the name and correct terms etc.

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That basically describes it perfectly. Mostly there are remedies for lessening the problem, but as it says, in severe cases they might end up operating on my face, joy. We'll find out next week so I'll keep you guys up to date on that.

Long journal over crappyness, lol. End of now. I'm hungry, going to get some cheese on toast because I wrote about it, lol.

On another note the library just called, said that the books mum ordered (for me, the rest of the Bartimaeus trilogy <333) were in, so I'm hoping to have some reading material. I have books by Ruth Rendell, but I just can't read them. They don't keep my attention and I have yet to finish one out of three. They're just not exciting enough. Anyone know some new and exciting things for me to read?

Lamo. Third edit of the day bishies. I got through all of my damned messages in just a few hours... Dont you guys just love high speed interwebz?! <3333333333333


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I IS REVIVEDEDED

The greedy so and so's were so damned greedy that they deserve that word twice. lol. The Virgin Media people phoned us up and asked us why we hadn't payed the bill yet... Let's see shall we? When the sent us the bill they also sent us the threatening letter at the exact same time. Then they block off the internet, telephone and tv.

Stupidly, we pay the bills via either the internet or the phone... SO HOW THE HELL DO THEY EXPECT US TO PAY THE BLEEDING BILL?!?!

Anyway, we payed some, and got everything back almost instantly. Bastards. lol.

Not that we were too bothered XD We'd recently bought a new game called KeepSake. The game itself isn't new, but it was £10 so cheap skate stuff. And so far, I've gotten no where near finishing it. It's one of those search around for the answers things, no fighting, just a lot of puzzles. Boring to most, my kinda game. It's well relaxing and fun to play. It's also gorgeous, detailed, and huge! You should check the web for some screenshots or something, seriously great graphics for a game that was made in 06.

So now I'm going to check through my 574 messages X_X



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I AM DEADEDEDEDED!!!


I'm so sorry guys, but your 390 messages are going to have to pile up a hell of a lot more in the coming week, maybe two. I got no internet connection, telephone or tv, since we dont have any freaking money to pay for the bloody bills. But on a bright side I have college( That I tried to bunk but was dragged back, kicking and screaming lol.) so i have some internet time.

Only enough to reply to coments and get through a few journals maybe... Damn i am having such withdrawl symptoms, i[m making so many mistakes just typing lol.

Anyway, just letting you guys know that im good and living, mum and i dragged the old Super Nintendo out the dust and we're keeping busy with that lol. And to be honset, we haven't been as close and social together for a long time.

On a bad note we nearly lost our cats friday, luckily we caught on quickly. Mum had to use flee drops of the dog on the cats, but the warning was way too small so we didnt know it could be lethal until it was nearly too late. We went to the vets which were very expencive and luckily they were back up and running yesterday. We got them back home on monday <333 We were damned happy I tell you.

That's it. I got to go search jobs for the next hour... joy lol.

Hope you guys are all healthy and goodness <33333

is in extreme need commissions and/or donations! If she doesn't get at least 16 commissions she will not be able to pay her rent and will be forced to move out with no-where to go. So please give her some love and care, and if you can't afford to commission her then please spread the word by writing about it in your journals. [link]

As someone who's experienced (and experiencing) similar problems I know how difficult it can be. And since she's suffering from Chronic Back Pains it must be even worse for her.

is also holding a Charity Auction for her [link] and many wonderful artists are offering their art up for work. Please go check it out, there's also the possibility of offering up your own artwork for auction and all profits made go to =TerrorEffect

If you can't offer either, for what ever reason, then at least go give her some words of support. Let's show everyone that Deviantart is a united community, unlike popular belief!




(Ps - Please ignore the ' pleased' Thumb's up that is my mood, because for some reason I've not been able to change it.)

LOL Check this its quite good! got this from ~jolly2
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Individualistic Doer (ID)

Individualistic DoerIndividualistic Doers are self-assured and very independent persons. They are quiet and realistic, very rational, extremely matter of fact persons. They strongly cultivate their individualism and enjoy applying their abilities to new tasks. But they are also very spontaneous and impulsive persons who like to follow their sudden inspirations. Individualistic Doers are good and precise observers who register everything which goes on around them. However, they are not so sensitive as regards interpersonal relations and are surprised when they occasionally rub someone up the wrong way with their direct and blunt manner. They are not particularly fond of obligations; but if you give them space, they are uncomplicated, sociable and cheerful individuals.

Individualistic Doers enjoy challenges - action and the odd kick are simply part of their life. They love tempting fate and many people of this type have risky hobbies such as skydiving or bungee jumping. This also applies to their workaday life. Individualistic Doers are in top form in critical situations; they can grasp situations, make decisions and take the necessary steps extremely quickly. Hierarchies and authorities impress them very little; if a superior is not competent, they will have little respect for him. Individualistic Doers like to take on responsibility. They have a marked sense of reality and always find the most suitable and expedient solution for a problem. They resolve conflicts openly and directly; here, they sometimes lack tact but are also very good at taking criticism themselves.

As friends, Individualistic Doers are loyal and devoted; they only have a few friendships but many of them last a lifetime. People enjoy talking to them because of their optimistic attitude to life and their ability to listen. However, they prefer to talk about mutual interests and hobbies rather than about theoretical or philosophical issues - they are not tangible enough for them. They need a lot of freedom and time to themselves in love relationships but, at the same time, they are also very tolerant towards their partners. It happens very seldom that Individualistic Doers fall head over heels in love. They are far too rational. They prefer to pick their partner on the basis of mutual interests and preferences which they want to share with that partner. Individualistic Doers are not particularly fond of effusive outbursts of emotion. They prefer to prove their love by their actions and expect the same of their partner. Whoever wishes to tie an Individualistic Doer to himself needs a lot of patience. It takes some time before this personality type is willing to get involved with another person.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, practical, logical, spontaneous, adventurous, resolved, independent, fearless, loyal, analytical, realistic, optimistic, interested, quiet, curious, circumspect, individualistic, action-loving, venturesome, cool, dispassionate, reserved, skilful, confident, independent, communicative, down-to-earth

These subjects could interest you
travel, nature, hiking, cars, model making, gardening, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual matters, music, literature, writing, strategy games, politics